Confused....

So many things had happened for the past week... I'm getting really tired of everything.

On one fine day, i received a msg from MiMi:"Got! I want her for very long already. But hai... Not ment to be." Exact words and spacing. Nothing additional more added or left out. How do you think I will feel when I receive this kind of msg.

I replied "dun msg me anymore." No reply from him after a few mins(or rather a min or so). I gave him a call. 2 missed calls in fact to him. After a minute later I tried my luck again. He answered. I asked him does he know what he sent to me. He said "ya". I asked him what happened. He told me his "friend" MARK, used his mobile to message one of his friends, while they are on the fast-craft back to tekong.

How long is the ferry ride let me ask you. I give it a max of 20 min. Would you lent your phone to a friend to which you dun even have his mobile number? Would THAT message be sent to me if that fella pressed the button"reply"? How the message could be sent to me wrongly is only based on two reasons I came up with. One is "create a new message". The second is pressed "forward, which in Azmi's phone, I'm considered the first in the list. Which in fact the first number on his list is "A" with no number stored. He told me it is to prevent "wrongly-pressed-the-button-situation".

But fuck, it still happened. I really think that he is messaging his friend talking 'bout some girl he couldn't have. But due to the "routine" of messaging me, he pressed my number unintentinally. After which, he then realised he sent to the wrong person.

I really swear to God that this is really what happened.

Why can't he cheat behind my back and don't ever let me find out? In this way, all 3 parties can lead a happy life.

I'm hurt, because he is thinking 'bout some other girl. I'm hurt, because he lied to me and came up with such a UNBELIEVEABLE story. I'm hurt, because I now then realised that he doesn't love me that much(or at all). I'm hurt, because I love him way way way too much. I'm really hurt by him. I really thought that he could be The One.

Gosh, I'm shattered now. Will I ever have someone who loves me truthfully, sincerely, whole-heartedly?
Right now, I doubt everyone, including myself.

Stupid me, to believe this guy won't cheat anymore on the girlfriend. Stupid me, to fall in love so deeply with him. Stupid me in everything I do.