Losing Myself

what's happening to me?

i can't remember what i need to do.
i feel suffocated the whole day.
i seem to lose my organization skills.
i can't find a venue to hold my event.
i forget what's my next step supposed to be.
i let my imagination run too far, too wild.
i fret unnecessarily.
i feel like crying suddenly.
the rain doesn't help this time. in fact, it's making me more depressing.
i don't feel like talking.
i don't know how to express myself.
i speak incoherently.
i don't want to see anyone. at all.

when will this be over?