Weeping

I thought i will never cry for him again... but i just did...

I dreamt 'bout him every night and then, and let me tell u-it hurts. I wake up everytime with tears in my eyes and a heart that seem to stop pumping.

This year i was in Paris for my birthday. Most of my friends messaged me "happy birthday", except him. Did he forget my birthday so fast already? Guess i was stupid to bake him a cake for his brithday, somemore was going for SNY after passing his mother the cake.

I can't go to the places that we went before. Niether could i enjoy the food that we ate together before. I remember telling him many times that "food taste weird without you around". He didn't believe, or was it because he thought i was just talking crap? But it was all so true when i told him so.

Now he have a new life, and yet i'm farking deeply stuck inside it. I'm trying to get out, but smetimes the pain prevents me from doing so.

I really still love him so much that i can't have another relationship with someone new. My heart is still following him when perhaps i shouldn't.

Help me please. I can't stop crying.