Trouble brewing

It's the wee hours of a new day. But yet I don't exactly feel new.

Here I am blogging after missing in action for the past few months. Life's been a tad more difficult than usual. Things are not going as smooth as I hope it will be.

I've been on a month No Pay Leave as of 1st July. Which basically means ZERO income. But I have no complains 'cuase I can catch up with my friends. I can meet MiMi anytime without any worries. I can sleep till the sun is going down. I can TRY to clean up my room, which I've been trying to do since the first day of July. I can go for physiotherapy without changing flights, and without the pressure for the company.

But now, I'm facing the most heart breaking point. MiMi and I have been quarrelling for the past few days. And today he say he wanted to leave me 'cause he can't take it. I have no darnest idea what went wrong, what did I do wrong, or what had exactly happened. Everything just happened in a moment of flash.

I know he's pressurized 'bout money matters. I know he's unhappy with work. I know he still wants to be an officer. But I just don't know why he's upset with me.

Please MiMi, just tell me what's wrong. I want us to be able to get through this rough patch. I want us to be able to get through all difficulties in our lives. I want to enjoy moments of joy, sweetness, laughter with you. I want to solve all problems, questions, dilemmas with you. All we need to do is to have understanding, tolerance, communication and loads of love for each other.

You got to get this drilled inside your head, heart and soul: I can only have one person in my life, and that person is you exclusively. I LOVE YOU ONLY.

But I can't do it alone.
I need you to step forward with me.