Month end already....

Gee.... It's the end of the month already... Money all used up already also...

The company said that we will have to clean the aircraft ourselves starting from 1st Feb... Oh my gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to be a cleaner as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MiMi will be going away on the 12th Feb 2a.m. Can't see him for at least 3 weeks.... Can't get to talk to him in the 1st week he goes to Thailand... *sad sad sad* Somemore my schedule is so tight for the whole month!!

Feel liked baking something... But too bad, the oven is not in operation... =)

Dunno why.... I feel like giving up.... Why do I always give up so easily???

Still very sian...

Got back from Perth yesterday.... Was an OK trip... But what made me happy is the amount of wonderful, fantastic, mouth-watering fruits and food I bought!!!! Nectarines at A$2.49 per kilo! Toothpaste-style instant coffee mix!! Cheese-crispbread dip by Uncle Toby which is definately not found in Singapore!!! Jesters Pies and.... *YUMMY!!!*..... and..... =)

Finally got to see my MiMi from 'bout 2 hours plus last night. Went to Kino then went to his house. While watching TV, he looked real bored. Somehow I got pissed and disappointed. Pissed is because when I asked if he's bored, he said yes. The next second I asked the same question again and he said no. What does that mean?? Yes or No??? Disappointed because he didn't even take the effort to make me happy. He doesn't try to make me laugh anymore.

He asked me why I don't seem to care for him anymore.Why I become so different with my concern. I feel like telling him, "why don't you ask yourself the same question you asked me." But I didn't. As I said, I just don't know how to feel anymore. It's really pathetic and sad when you feel this way.

Gotta work tomorrow... It's not so bad yet. The worase will be on the 18th-19th Jan, 21th and 25th Jan...I'll be working together "hand-in-hand" with dear Miss M. Doubt she will forget 'bout that fateful day when I stepped on her beautiful arse.

Why am I feeling this way? Feel so alone.
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Tired....

A rest day finally...

Did I mentioned I finally got a digital camera?? Cost me S$650!!!! Plus one 512SD Card of S$67!!! And I don't have much chance to use it. =p

But never mind!!! My next target is iPod!!! Either a 20G or 40G will do. =)

Going to Perth(again) tomorrow... Betta remember to change currency... Once I didn't have enough Aussie dollar with me and went to the money changer with ONE Sing ten dollar... Got back only SEVEN AUSSIE DOLLARS nia!! =s

During one conversation with my collegue, she asked me if I ever felt meaningless in this job. This question really sank in my mind... What exactly do I get from this job. I guess it's the same answer all over again:MONEY...

One of my batch girls got hooked up with a flight operation fella. They are so in honeymoon period now. Come to think 'bout it... Does my MiMi plan any special things on special occasions?? Not that I can recall of. Am I expecting too much from him because of what other couples do?? Maybe so... But then again, woman are ALWAYS like that. And I'm definately no different from those woman. =)

Didn't get the chance to talk to my MiMi since yesterday morning SMS... Sometimes I just don't feel anything anymore.... Sometimes sometimes sometimes....

Is it my job that is making me insecure and "in-confident"?? 'Bout my relationship with MiMi? 'Bout my friends? 'Bout myself? 'Bout everything...

Any instant, 3-in-1 solution??

=)

Supposed to be a nice day...

Well... It WAS definately supposed to be a nice day... But unfortunately, I "stepped on a nonsensical Crew-In-Charge(a.k.a. Miss M) short waggy tail". Like to know what happened? This is how the story goes....

I was so happy to finish work after being unable to sleep the previous night. So as I was nearing the exit door, the next set of crew came in to take over the aircraft. So being in the joyous, festival, celebratary, I went forward to Miss M and said :"Happy New Year!!". She replied back with the same and also a curt smile on her face.

In the next instant moment, her face turned real "dark" and asked me what's my name. Was in shock because her attitude changed faster than any magician can perform tricks!! Told her my name and got this reply:"Don't take it for granted that I will know your name. Next time please take the initative to introduce yourself to any of the crew until they recognised you.

My my.... What a lightning speed, high revolution punch that was to my already-small-enough-ego. Poor me, what to do.... I just apologized and walk out with a bitter smile.

Things not over yet. As one of the trainer was on board, she immediately complained to her!!! As the exiting crew were walking out of the aerobridge, the trainer told me the same thing what Miss M said to me. But of 'coz with a "nicer" tone....

That really spoil my day. Really destroy it....

Went home then to check the roster for the rest of the month... Bless me my Lord, for I still have TWO flights with her!!! One back from Perth. The other one is HKG!!! A total of 12 hours with her!!!! "Forgive me for I have sinned". =(

Also today MiMi outfield...only managed to message in the dawn... After which my mobile went into a state of silence.... *Sad sad*....

What have I exactly done to get all these bulls%#t....

Give me a sign my Almighty.
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Oh ya...HI DIANE!!!!
=)