Saw my RED CBR!!!

Hee hee... My RED CBR 150 is in the shop oreadi!!! *Happy Happy*

Hai... But also sad 'coz now cannot find a first rider... MiMi cannot take out his 11B... But come to think about it- What the whole point if I didn't pass my TP??  =

The bike is not the main source of headache. It's the choice of my future job.

SBS Transit called me up on the 21th July, offering me the post of Leasing Officer. The pay is between S$1400-S$1600. Not very fantastic, but it's 5-day work week. Well, considered a stable job in the long run(that's if I'm interested in the field lar). Plus free transport!! I will also have the relevant experience in this field should I change company.

Valuair called me up on the 18th, asking me to go down for second round of interview on the 21th. I went of 'coz. They said "most probably" will call us up by end of the month should we get selected for the post of cabin crew. The basic pay is S$1200, with every hour of flying at S$18/hour. Per crew flying hours is targeted at round 100 hours. So estimated pay per month is 'bout S$3000.*blink blink*
However, irregular work days, holidays and weekend have to work & blah blah blah.

Sounds like an easy choice to make right? 
Ha!WRONG!!! Life's never that simple.

If I take up Valuair's offer, what 'bout my MiMi?? I have irregular working hours and days. I scared he will "run" away. THAT'S MY MAIN CONCERN.

If I take up SBS's offer, I will feel like I have wasted, disappointed myself,missed out on a chance at doing something different.  I also won't earn that much. Plus it's seems to be a rather routine job.

Alas, not everything is perfect in the not-so-wonderful earth. Simply put it in this way:
If I think for myself --> Valuair
If I think for MiMi   --> SBS Transit

God, help me make a wise decision.

Bikey...

Hee hee... Went to make arrangement for my bike on Saturday(17/07/2004)... Feel happy but not exhilerated or what... Happy 'coz I have my OWN VEHICLE... But not so happy 'coz of financial committment from now on. Hmm.... confusing and putting myself in a dilemma... (-_-")

Going to take my Test soon... In 'bout less than 2 weeks... Gee,most probably I will fail... (^^)

My silly MiMi going for field camp soon -- 1st till 7th August. Then another one from 16th-18th August. Hai... My Test MiMi not around... My graduation MiMi not around. It's not because he's not around when all those events are taking place. It's just simply because I will miss him alot alot. =(

The thing now is I already miss him whenever he goes back to camp.
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Sian...

Hai... Just had a not-so-good quarrel with MiMi. But then, when have any quarrel been "uplifing" to the spirit? =(

Dunno why also... Been feeling kinda demoralize these few weeks. Guess I just don't have the job opportunity and plain old luck to get the ones I'm interested in. =]

Finally passed my practical 8 last Friday(09/07/2004). Can heave "half-a-sigh" of relief... The other half... That gotta wait after I pass my Traffic Police Test which is on the 5th August. Hee... Got a feeling that I'm SURE to fail and HAVE to retake it. But once again, what is new 'bout me failing and failing and failing(and failing....)?

Bought a DRESS today. Well, can say that it's my FIRST dress. Usually I have those demine skirt or working-type of skirt, which I wear them only WHEN REQUIRED. So kinda feel weird when I tried the dress on just now... So ?!@#$?. But seriously the dress is nice and MiMi likes it(I think?). =p

For now I only wish, pray, hope that MiMi will don't feel so down, demoralize, depress, despondent. Passing or failing my TP doesn't matter at all. If failing my TP will make his luck and mood change for the better, I rather so be it.

I hate it when he is not happy. Coz it make me unhappy to see him like that.
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Passed my Practical 7 ONCE!!!

Hahaha!! Can't believe it. This is the FIRST TIME I passed my practical at the first try!!! Guess was just plain lucky... (^^)

Sian... Feeling super confused and emotionally unstable now since June 10th. Dunno how long I can take this kind of f**k. Now is like quarreling with MiMi every single day--feels SO suffocating. I have no darnest idea if I'm the one who is changing or him. All I know is that I really feel like crying but just that no tears is coming to help me release out my frustration.

Last time, how I feel is that MiMi want to be just with me only. But now... I guess I'm really looking at things way too seriously and at the wrong angle.

Went shopping with Madelien on Wednesday. Bought a bracelet/anklet butterfly kind... She said it's a modern friendship band!! Wahahaha!!! Didn't know she still in this kind of stuff!!! *kidding* Really like it very very much. =]

Going for my Practical 8 this coming Monday. Of course I have to take revision circuit first lar!!! I KNOW i'm damn lousy, so I guess I have to put in extra effort. Hopefully can pass and get my traffic Police Test Date which is on the 22nd June.

Pray for me ya.
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