How things how changed...

Times really fly fast when you're experiencing changes from one thing to another.

For starters, I choose Valuair. Simply because of money. Money can do a lot of wonders as well as damages. It can help me through my Uni studies, it can make life easier for me and Mi. Damages: overspending on everything and end up saving nothing but with a pile of bad debts on my arse.

Secondly, I passed my T.P. finally!!! On the 4th November to be exact. =)
Bought my black/grey bike with my own money, with two years of installement to pay off.=(

Thirdly, finally bought a digital camera!!! Nothing fancyful... Just something simple that I know how to use without reading the instruction manual. =)

To be very frank, I seriously doubt 'bout my choice to be with Valuair. Work is simply just a tad way too stressful. Not because of "WORK" itself, but the stress lies in the people there. And yes, the roster sucks. I can't "officially and openly" change my shift till end of April. It's feels so restrictive.

And of course not forgetting my darling.... MiMi... He's going to be away after Chinese New Year and IT'S MUCH WORST THAN HIM BEING CONFINED IN CAMP. Overseas calls are darn expensive. And I beginning to wonder how "high" my handphone charges are for this month...

Well, in conclusion, things changed for the worse in my perssimistic opinion. I lost precious time to be with my Mi. I lost relevant work experience in the industry of what I've studied in the past 3 years. And frankly speaking, how I wish to give up everything now and just go back to school and be the naive school-children.

I realised I don't really have anything to be happy, glamourous or proud of. Well, of course with the exception of MiMi. =)

Fail my TP and taking it again...

Hai.... Failed my TP.... 32 points and 1 immediately failure!!! My goodness.... Is my riding skills that lousy or just plain unlucky? And don't say I will pass the next one 'coz I know I not that lucky to pass at second attempt. =]

This is my 5th day at work. Seriously I don't quite like it.
Well, the reason is very simple. I have no lunch partner at work when I'm in the office. Either I will buy back to desk (or cook instant cup noodle), face the computer screen and eat my lunch- ALONE. The feeling is pretty demoralizing. I guess it's the feeling that "I'm friend-less". And seriously I don't quite like it.

This coming Thursday going to take TP Test again. Most probably will fail 'coz this time round I've got feeling that I will fail. =(

What to do? I just don't have the luck and fate to pass the test- no matter how many revisions I go, how much confidence I have, how hard I try to do my best.
=...(

T.P. tomorrow!!

Wa!!!! SCARY ah!! Tomorrow T.P. liao.. but actually dunno why, don't feel nervous or watsoever leh... Think it's becoz I know I will definately fail.

Right now I actually miss MiMi a lot... He's in field camp now, can't call, can't message. *So sad* Have to wait for him to book out this weekend and the worst thing is don't know when and what time he can book out.
Never mind, I WILL WAIT FOR HIM NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Signed a letter of employment with SBS Transit on Monday(02/08/2004). Bor bian... Valuair say they will call the shortlistee latest by 11th August. Can't afford to wait for Valuair right?! What if I'm not ahortlisted and SBS sick and tired of waiting for me?? =)

Taking up the job with SBS Transit is also kinda good. At least can see MiMi after work and on weekend. =)

I miss my dear MiMi...
*huggies!!!!! muackz!!!!!!*

Saw my RED CBR!!!

Hee hee... My RED CBR 150 is in the shop oreadi!!! *Happy Happy*

Hai... But also sad 'coz now cannot find a first rider... MiMi cannot take out his 11B... But come to think about it- What the whole point if I didn't pass my TP??  =

The bike is not the main source of headache. It's the choice of my future job.

SBS Transit called me up on the 21th July, offering me the post of Leasing Officer. The pay is between S$1400-S$1600. Not very fantastic, but it's 5-day work week. Well, considered a stable job in the long run(that's if I'm interested in the field lar). Plus free transport!! I will also have the relevant experience in this field should I change company.

Valuair called me up on the 18th, asking me to go down for second round of interview on the 21th. I went of 'coz. They said "most probably" will call us up by end of the month should we get selected for the post of cabin crew. The basic pay is S$1200, with every hour of flying at S$18/hour. Per crew flying hours is targeted at round 100 hours. So estimated pay per month is 'bout S$3000.*blink blink*
However, irregular work days, holidays and weekend have to work & blah blah blah.

Sounds like an easy choice to make right? 
Ha!WRONG!!! Life's never that simple.

If I take up Valuair's offer, what 'bout my MiMi?? I have irregular working hours and days. I scared he will "run" away. THAT'S MY MAIN CONCERN.

If I take up SBS's offer, I will feel like I have wasted, disappointed myself,missed out on a chance at doing something different.  I also won't earn that much. Plus it's seems to be a rather routine job.

Alas, not everything is perfect in the not-so-wonderful earth. Simply put it in this way:
If I think for myself --> Valuair
If I think for MiMi   --> SBS Transit

God, help me make a wise decision.

Bikey...

Hee hee... Went to make arrangement for my bike on Saturday(17/07/2004)... Feel happy but not exhilerated or what... Happy 'coz I have my OWN VEHICLE... But not so happy 'coz of financial committment from now on. Hmm.... confusing and putting myself in a dilemma... (-_-")

Going to take my Test soon... In 'bout less than 2 weeks... Gee,most probably I will fail... (^^)

My silly MiMi going for field camp soon -- 1st till 7th August. Then another one from 16th-18th August. Hai... My Test MiMi not around... My graduation MiMi not around. It's not because he's not around when all those events are taking place. It's just simply because I will miss him alot alot. =(

The thing now is I already miss him whenever he goes back to camp.
=|

Sian...

Hai... Just had a not-so-good quarrel with MiMi. But then, when have any quarrel been "uplifing" to the spirit? =(

Dunno why also... Been feeling kinda demoralize these few weeks. Guess I just don't have the job opportunity and plain old luck to get the ones I'm interested in. =]

Finally passed my practical 8 last Friday(09/07/2004). Can heave "half-a-sigh" of relief... The other half... That gotta wait after I pass my Traffic Police Test which is on the 5th August. Hee... Got a feeling that I'm SURE to fail and HAVE to retake it. But once again, what is new 'bout me failing and failing and failing(and failing....)?

Bought a DRESS today. Well, can say that it's my FIRST dress. Usually I have those demine skirt or working-type of skirt, which I wear them only WHEN REQUIRED. So kinda feel weird when I tried the dress on just now... So ?!@#$?. But seriously the dress is nice and MiMi likes it(I think?). =p

For now I only wish, pray, hope that MiMi will don't feel so down, demoralize, depress, despondent. Passing or failing my TP doesn't matter at all. If failing my TP will make his luck and mood change for the better, I rather so be it.

I hate it when he is not happy. Coz it make me unhappy to see him like that.
=(

Passed my Practical 7 ONCE!!!

Hahaha!! Can't believe it. This is the FIRST TIME I passed my practical at the first try!!! Guess was just plain lucky... (^^)

Sian... Feeling super confused and emotionally unstable now since June 10th. Dunno how long I can take this kind of f**k. Now is like quarreling with MiMi every single day--feels SO suffocating. I have no darnest idea if I'm the one who is changing or him. All I know is that I really feel like crying but just that no tears is coming to help me release out my frustration.

Last time, how I feel is that MiMi want to be just with me only. But now... I guess I'm really looking at things way too seriously and at the wrong angle.

Went shopping with Madelien on Wednesday. Bought a bracelet/anklet butterfly kind... She said it's a modern friendship band!! Wahahaha!!! Didn't know she still in this kind of stuff!!! *kidding* Really like it very very much. =]

Going for my Practical 8 this coming Monday. Of course I have to take revision circuit first lar!!! I KNOW i'm damn lousy, so I guess I have to put in extra effort. Hopefully can pass and get my traffic Police Test Date which is on the 22nd June.

Pray for me ya.
=|

MiMi BDay!!!

TODAY MY DEAR DEAR HUBBY MiMi 21th B|RTHDAY!! Happy Happy B|rthday!!! *muackz muackz huggies huggies*

Finally my MiMi booked out on the 26th... Just in time for his adulthood... (^^) Miss him so badly since 10th June. Practically cried everyday in the first week without him. What to do.... Love him so so much that when he not by my side, I will go crazy crazy...

Well, the worse(worst) have not come yet as I heard... But hopefully things can work out ok between us.

So headache and stressful now... Stress 'bout job, family, MiMi, bike. ={

Want to become part time, but apparently the company is like turning on a deaf ear to my pleads. At worst, I guess I gotta go. But for the sake of MiMi, I guess nothing other much else matters. =|

Had a slight misunderstanding at home Parents so not understanding also... ={

MiMi--Stress becoz I don't get to see him for SIX(6) DAYS!!!! This is the most stressful for me. =..{

Bike--Don't think I can make it for the July 15th test day. Dun know how many times I must take then can pass practical 7 & 8 ?!?!?! *Eh!!!demoralising one leh!!!*

Sian... Got to do split shift tomorrow... So darn tired now-physically & mentally. =[

Miss moi boy boy so much... Almost cried when he had to book in just now...

These few weeks just don't never seem to be in my favour.
=[

I'm a Glass of Wine!!
(^_^)

Should I take up the job offer?

Went for the interview on Thursday at 2.45pm, came out of the office at 3.16pm. Well seriously thought I will flunk it. Why? They say they have many other candidates and will give me a reply within 3 days. Sounds bad right?

Turns out in the other way round.

I got a call from the company at 5.30pm. Apparantly I got the job. The boss was pretty impressed with me. *Strange... seems like they are quite desparate for a hostess.*
Good news is that the company is willing to pay me the salary I asked for!

Well, all good things must come to an end. I just simply can't come to a decision.
MiMi asked me to take up the job. It's not as simple as that. I really want to spend as much time as I can with MiMi...

How? What will YOU chose? The job or spend time with MiMi?? Everyone I spoke to said I'm will be stupid to give up this offer. Some say it's actually a test for our relationship. I don't know...

BUT!!! One thing I know for sure.
I know I love MiMi alot... I already miss him alot...
=]

Finally can heave a sigh of relief as I finally finish my final presentation, handed up my final report and now waiting for my final grade. (^^)

Yesterday went for a job interview as a full-time hostess. Well, I got to admit that the job sounds good as I can get wear anything I like to work. 6 days work week, from either 11-7pm or 3-11pm. Get to interact with customers and not just show them to their seats (They tell me so, I don't know if it's true or not yet...)

They offered my S$1400 (Actually the pay is ok with me), but I asked for S$1500. Greedy?? Maybe.
I need to pay off my school fees. I need to pay for bike lessons. I need to pay for my new bike. I need to buy more clothes to wear for work. I need to... ... ... *Never ending....* (^_^)

All things said, but I still need to go through a second interview. Dunno if they will call me up or not, that's the MAIN problem.

Well, IF they do offer me the job, I also dunno to take it up anot.
All is because of MiMi. He haven't get his enlistment letter yet. So therefore, dunno when he will go NS. Want to spend more time with him before he enlist... That's why.

Plus I haven't get my own transport yet. Getting to the work place is a bit out of place. No MRT. No bus(gotta walk a distance). =[

Lucky for Jean, she got the job... Good for her. Work hard hor girl!!!

Seriously, it's not 'bout how much they pay me. It's not 'bout the inconvenience. It's all because of MiMi.

Any solutions?? *scratch head*

=[

Who will take some pity on me!!!!????

What are medical leave for??
Today Friday... Not supposed to come to school, supposed to stay home recuperate... But my dear project members ARE supposed to come, yet they fail to turn up... Got to do the project all by myself...
=[

Swelling finally went down... So not much people give me second look...
But MiMi say MY FACE DROOPY!!!!!!! *Sad sad sad*

Going to watch Starsky & Hutch(funny!!), Dawn of the Dead(scary...) & 50 FIRST DATES(extremely funny!!!) with MiMi Busuk...

*AARRGGHHH!!!!!* Going to rain soon!! But I got no brolly!!!!

Dunno why... Recently i'm into PINK!?!?! *So weird... So not me...*
Current likes: Dior Pink Saddle Bag, Dior Pink Watch, Dior Pink Bracelet... But pretty difficult to find leh...
*Of coz I can't afford to buy the real thing lar stupid!!!*
(^_^)

I look like a pig now....

Got a swelling cheek which EVERYONE will take a SECOND LOOK when they see my face... Too bad it's not because I pretty... =[
Cannot eat solid and hot food... Cannot drink hot liquid... Cannot brush teeth... Cannot this, Cannot that... Tell me what can i eat then. But I think it's a good chance to try and slim down... *Like real i will succeed*

Sleepy leh... Last night couldn't catch much sleep 'cause my wound were hurting like hell... Finally woke up at 2A.M. to eat the painkillers...

Finally found someone to buy Absolute Vanilla... Dunno tast nice anot...

Not much mood to write anything... Having fever now due to the wound... *Yawn!!!!!!!*
*~*

n0r|x n|xDorf: wat mimi doin?
Fallapart: project
Fallapart: finishing up a part
Fallapart: then quickly do report
Fallapart: after finish up the part still got debugging
Fallapart: aiyoh.
Fallapart: i feel like spraying the program with insecticide

*WAHAHAHAHA!!!!!*

*OOOOWWWWW!!!!*
Pain sia.... Got to do TWO procedures today.

First one is "i-don't-know-what-it-is", but I do know I lost blood.
Only after that, I finally took out my 2 infected swelling wisdom teeth... Lost MORE BLOOD... Could see the suction machine filled with a bottle-ful of FRESH blood... *Mine lar!! Who else???*

But luckily this time round I never cry.... Male dentist are always gentler to female patient... *Heeheehee... Wrong to say this meh??* =]

Die ah!! Die ah!!! Next Tuesday need to do Final Project Presentation... But till now... Ah Yo....
Even I got M.C. for the next FIVE days, think I will still need to go back to school to get ready the Presentation and the Final Report.... POOR ME!!!!! =[

Tomorrow 9a.m. need to go down to National Dental Center to check on the infection... That means I need to take cab down to school... =[

Luckily today got MiMi sayang me after my surgery... Not like last time...
=p

"The Prince and Me" is a lame Cheesy show.... So fairy-taley... No storyline... Almost fell asleep in the theater... Spare me the torture pls...*YIKESSSS!!!!!*

MiMi so sweet on Sunday!!! Went round Changi hawker center just to find sugarcane drink for me.... Anyway it only happen once in a purple moon.... =]

Poor MiMi... Still got some many reports haven't do finish... Monthly report... Final report... Final project... Somemore must hand up by this month!!! *Headache... ... ... Headache*
(Actually I also haven't do yet... HeeHee...)

Well,tomorrow will be my surgery liao... A bit scare scare... But wat to do?? For the sake of good fine food, must pluck it out!!!

Today my mama b-day... How old is she?? Don't ask me, coz a woman age is forever a deep dark secret...

MAY 17th come faster!!! I want to take my Riding theory Test!!! Becoz of u I cannot take Practical 6!!!!
=[

When wi|| the we@ther turn c00|er???

Had a bad bad day...

Smoking ciggies,burnt my finger.
My teeth is acting up again... Really can't wait for the surgery anymore!!!

Cut hair, the stupid shop cut wrong never mind... But i had to wait over 1 1/2 hour!!! Had to go to another shop and spent another sum of money to salvage wat the previous shop did wrong... *AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!! SCREW THEM!!!!!*

Poor MiMi waited so long while i was waiting to have a haircut... Think he grew a lot of 'mushroom' while waiting... =p

Do u think money can damage a friendship or even a relationship?? Somehow or rather i think it can... It's a pretty scary thought ya??

If so, will u give up the money or give up the friend?? Tough question.... No definate answer.... =|

Going to watch midnight movie "The Prince and Me", with MiMi and his good friend and girlfriend... *So romantic!!!* (^o^)

Silly MiMi just drop his phone... AGAIN... Think he was born with butter-fingers...
(^^)

@n0ther H0t Hum|d D@y

Hee!!! My teeth feels better (after taking a medicine that looks like Viagra)!!! Can feel my set of teeth close up... Can bite a bit properly... Can eat a bit solid food... Can talk more... Can smile more!!!! Without winching in pain YET!!! (^o^)

Just now was walking and mumbling 'bout the weather when i slipped & landed on my backside....Thank God,I'm still pretty much intact.

Another damm Hot Humid day... Luckily not riding bike... If not, I will be as "black" as a construction worker...

Waiting for May 13...One more month rite?? U want to know why?? =]
Coz i'll be finally finishing my 3years of Poly lfe!! *Whee!!!!!*

But sad also... Will miss cheap canteen food, Will miss exams(?), Will miss lectures & tutorial, Will miss being late for class every single day... Will miss my classmates (NP/BEM/05Class) whom some i call them as my best friends. =[

Poor MiMi....Think he sick... Sneeze & Sneeze & Sneeze & Sneeze....Soon his nose could be like Rudolf.
*ah-chOOOO!!!*

Supposed to start tieing up loose ends for my final report and stuff....Alas,no mood AND dunno wat to do... *sianz*
HHOOWW???

Woke up in the middle of the night and realised i was sleeping on the floor...No wonder my backside cold cold pain pain.... *Brrrrr....ccooolllllllllddddddd*

Did i move myself to sleep on the floor??? I can't remember... Damn my amnesia...
:|

N|ghtM@re W|th My Own B0dy

My stupid wisdom tooth hurts real bad that i can't really clench my jaws or even feel my two row of teeths together... coz i'll be biting on my own skin... *OOOUUUCCHHHYYY*

"Pretty serious,gotta set u up for sugery ASAP." Going for dental surgery next Tue as i can't drag it anymore longer. Pray for me i dun cry again (i wish i was dead when the lady dentist PULLED it out the first time...) while the dentist takes out my TWO wisdom teeth.

Thank God it's a male dentist who's going to extract it out...Hope he'll be very gentle. =]

Had a bad nightmare last nite. Dreamt that moi boyboy got 2(or is it 3??) other girlfren outside.... Gave him the wonderful chance to choose,but yet he chose to be quiet->he wants to have the best of all worlds?? What does it mean?? He really have girlfrenS outside?? Or he can't let go of the past???
Or i'm just thinking way too much?

Tears was rolling off my cheeks when i woke up... My heart was slightly cracked.
:(